The Easter Flower

This is the day before Easter. We made cake balls using lemon cake and lemon frosting :) We decided not to dip ours in anything this time. They taste excellent! We boiled 6 eggs and decorated them to perfection.

None Of These Pictures Are Of Ours, I Haven't Uploaded Them Yet. So These Will Hold Their Place.

We ran all our errands, including buying our puppies collars. They were much needed, they've had the same choke collars for 2 + years. We got them the really nice Martha Stewart collars on clearance.

 









Both are brown, they were out of the medium-sized pink harnesses for Jewels, but it looks good one her. It actually compliments her brindle very well.

We filled each other's Easter Baskets with candies, a bunny, and a little gift. I can't wait for tomorrow when I see what My Lovey got me :)

Happy Easter Everyone!

My Garden Froze Over

So the "other woman" successfully ruined my life three weeks ago. Her daughter told her that I hit another child, called a child a jerk, and that I threatened a couple of children. Out of these three accusations, one is true. I never hit or threatened any child. I did, however, call a child a jerk. It was no secret, I informed my boss and the girl's Mom. Her mom agreed that her child in that instance was a jerk, but still I apologized and let her know that I shouldn't have said it and that I didn't mean it. Alas, the "other woman" reported these things to HR. There was an investigation, the "other woman" took her child out of the program before any decisions were made. So because I admitted to calling a 6 year old girl a jerk, I was terminated. I have no income, no money, no food, no anything. I have lost the second most important thing in my life. I loved my job, my kids, my coworkers, my boss, everything about working for the YMCA. It's all gone, I have 'nothing' but my depression. On a brighter side, my relationship with my SunShine has been getting so much better! We're closer than we have been in over a year. I love it! I love waking up happy to be with her, happy to see her, just happy. I'm crazy sad when she's not around because I'm left with my thoughts of being jobless, penniless. But, I'm excited when she gets home from school. I love being with her and making her happy, despite our lives.

My Garden Is Starting To Wilt

I'm falling for another woman. She isn't you. She's really gorgeous, smart, funny from what I can tell, a great mom, and intriguing. She isn't you. I haven't been attracted to another person in about 5 years. I don't know what's going on. Why can't I turn it off...why is this happening? I don't want to be with anyone but you, I don't want to fantasize about another person, I don't want to dream about anyone else. I want to fix the things with us, I want us to be better than we ever were, I want you!

Bloody Rose

I hate myself for hurting you! I can’t look at myself in the mirror. I don’t like who I was. I’ve changed, but you can’t see that. You still see the asshole that hurt you. I just want the chance to show you and to prove to you that I am different. I need you; I love you! I will continue to change into the person you want and need until I get it right. I need/want you to be the person I need.

Spoiled Bouquet

I don't find myself attractive anymore. I don't like my hair being this short...I'm trying to grow it out. I'm overweight. I keep breaking out. I don't know what to do about these problems. I shower every day and wash my face twice a day. I've been going to the gym monday-friday to get into shape and eating better.

The Great Pumpkin

It's Halloween!!! I had an amazing day at work. We had a pizza and costume party. The costumes were my idea :) I was Xion from Kingdom Hearts. All of the kids that had costumes stayed in them until their parents came, but I stayed in mine up until I went to the YMCA. My friend was working today, it made me happy cause I haven't seen her in so long. She was "an old lady". I worked out for an hour before going to Target. I grabbed lots of junk and goodies :) My baby and I planned such a perfect night of junk food and movies and costumes. You, my darling, fell asleep within the first half of the first movie(Rocky Horror Picture Show), without your costume. :) I watched a horror film that scared me, like really scared me. I almost woke you up to protect me, I was so scared. It was called "Stevie". I watched a calming movie with Susan Sarandon in it(Idk the name of it), just so I could go to sleep without flinching at all the sounds. I love you, my love. It's only 52 degrees(F) outside, but it's so hot in here :( I'm off to Never Never Land, I'll see you in the morning :)

Tullips

-I wrote this when I was 16____________________________________________________ My world is flying circles around and round my head. Spinnin' upside down, twirlin' all around. Inside out, all means to shout. So hard to see, so hard to find myself within. Whoa. My world is flying circles around and round my head. Spinnin' upside down, twirlin' all around. Inside out, all means to shout. So hard to speak, so hard to talk to you!

A Rainy Saturday

It's raining and you're not here. I'm sick in bed and you're not here. I try to sit up and you're not here. I'm hungry and you're not here. I look around the room and you're not here. I am in love with you and you're not here. I really miss you and you're not here. I need a hug and you're not here. I want to see your beautiful face and you're not here. I need to see my Sunshine and you're not here. It's raining and you're still not here.




..........................I love you, even when you're not here

A Flower a Day

i love you more than anything in this world, more than you will ever comprehend. you make me happier than i have ever been. there's a glow in you that makes me glow brighter than the sun. i love you so much =) i can't wait to marry you =)


I am so in love with you Becca. you are my everything the only thing that keeps me breathing. waking up next to you, is all i want and more than i deserve. you are so perfect, i love you


if love is a battle field, you and i are the last ones standing Becca. i am so in
love with you babe.


we're engaged baby :) i don't regret proposing at all! I'm completely in love with you, Becca


you are the most amazing person i know. you're so perfect and so beautiful i fall even more in love with you with every breath i take you are everything i could ever want. you are more than i deserve. I'm yours forever i love you so much Becca. you're my girl. i am so grateful to have found you!


as i lay here and dream, it's always you you are my life my everything my absolute soul mate i can't see myself marrying anyone other than you you're my world my girl :) i am so in love with you Becca.



hey gorgeous i miss you baby


hi gorgeous did i ever tell you that I'm in love with you you're my shining star my best friend and my perfect match and i am so lucky to have found you


every time i open my phone and see our picture i smile and fall for you all over again I'm so madly in love with you :)


so there's this girl and she's the most amazing person i have ever met. she's my absolute soul mate and i have never been happier than when she looks and smiles at me. it's the best feeling in the world... knowing she feels just as strongly for me as i do her. did i tell you... her name is Becca i am very much in love with her. she's wearing the boots i got her and my sweater and she looks amazing.